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Feb 27 / Caro

To My Tiny Blob of Cells

I’m writing this with a photograph of you in my hand. A photograph taken when you were six days new. Just a collection of cells too small to see with the naked eye, but containing so much potential. So much hope.

Your Dad and I had been through a lot to get you to that point, and I was afraid that once you were back inside my tummy it wouldn’t be enough. That I couldn’t take good enough care of you. I was afraid you would fade and slip away, taking a piece of my heart with you.

But yesterday, ten days after that photograph was taken, I took the most nerve wracking test of my entire life – worse than my driving test or University finals. A plastic stick that would either fulfill or shatter our dreams. It was the test that would tell us if you were still there.

 

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And just like that, you made your presence known by a second pink line.

Already you will have grown and changed since we saw you in the laboratory where you started you life. And now I feel full of new hope that you will go on doing so. And I will do my very best to keep you safe, whatever it takes.

When you’re older, and we tell you the story of how you came to be, I hope that there will be no doubt about just how loved and wanted you are.

You are our longed for second child. And I can’t wait to meet you.

All my love always,

Your Mummy xxx

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  1. Emily / Feb 27 2014

    Sending so much love and a squeal of delight! xx

    • Caro / Feb 27 2014

      Thank you Emily! There have been a few squeals – and a lot of tears – around here too! x

  2. Katie {Always, Katie} / Feb 27 2014

    YES!!!! Oh-my-flipping-goodness, YesYesYesYES!! Yay! Congrats!!! Eeeeeeeep!! [bounces up and down on the couch like a crazy person] I am so excited for you, Caroline!

    • Caro / Feb 27 2014

      Thank you so much Katie! Obviously got all the fun and games of diabetic pregnancy to come now! And I have absolutely everything crossed that you will be in this place very soon x

  3. Allison Nimlos / Feb 27 2014

    Congratulations!! I am so happy for you!!

    • Caro / Feb 27 2014

      Thank you Allison. It has been a long road to get here, but I’m so happy we’ve finally done it!

  4. Kerri. / Feb 27 2014

    Oh Caro. I am so happy for you! xo

    • Caro / Feb 27 2014

      Thank you Kerri xx

  5. Carie / Feb 27 2014

    Whooopeeee! Yippee! Hurrah! CONGRATULATIONS! And keep sticking little baby stick (or should that be babies?!)

    • Caro / Feb 28 2014

      Thank you Carie! Please don’t mention the “T” word! We have a few weeks until we find that bit out!

  6. Amy Robinson / Feb 28 2014

    I burst out into tears when I saw that. I am so so so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Caro / Mar 1 2014

      Thank you Amy. I’m really hoping that you have some good news soon too x

  7. Melissa / Feb 28 2014

    Amazing.
    Here’s to a safe, happy and as stress free as possible diabetic pregnancy.
    So happy for you and your growing family!

    • Caro / Mar 1 2014

      Thank you! X

  8. Jennifer / Mar 1 2014

    So, so pleased for you, congratulations 🙂

    • Caro / Mar 1 2014

      Thank you! x

  9. Jo / Mar 1 2014

    I’ve got goosebumps reading this, so happy for you and your family.

    What fantastic and amazing news! xxx

    • Caro / Mar 1 2014

      Thank you Jo. I really hope your own fertility journey goes well – and quickly!

      • Jo / Mar 1 2014

        Thanks Caroline, we’ve just been prescribed fertility drugs so will be starting them next month. Fingers crossed xx

        • Caro / Mar 1 2014

          Lots and lots of luck! Really hope the drugs work for you x

  10. Hannah | MakeDo&Push / Mar 1 2014

    Congratulations!!! The most amazing news 🙂 I’m so happy for you xx

    • Caro / Mar 1 2014

      Thank you lovely 🙂

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